"Love Sought is good, but given unsought is better." -William Shakespeare

"Nobody puts baby in the corner"

I think I was wrong in naming Honey. She should have been named Baby.

For my birthday Ania gave me a box "for treasures". Her and I had talked before while walking through Hobby Lobby about having a cool box to put random treasures in. I had it all planned out then as to what I wanted to put in it, it has been a while since that talk. I am finally sitting down to it now, it is funny how motivated I get at night to do things. I literally slept most of my day away and now have energy to do things. I hobbled around and cleaned up my room, which had been bothering me for a while now. It is officially time to fill the treasure box. I have it and a bunch of papers and other boxes sprawled across my big bed. I'm watching "The Middle" online, and plan to have a good time about this. I am sorting through years or random collected things and weeding out the treasure from the things I should have thrown away.
Wish me luck!



This is the treasure box it's self. (It really isn't that yellow, it is just the lighting) >>>>>>















This is my collection of random things, I promise there is some good stuff mixed in there. >>>>>>>>>>>.











I'm really sorry about how badly I have neglected blogging. I guess I start to feel that no one is even reading it, then I randomly hear from a friend that they read about something on my blog or saw the pic. That and I have lost my ability to put words to my thoughts. A legit excuse though, is that I lost my camera while at school back in April and did not think to go to the WCC Police department and ask if anyone had turned it in. When I finally did, sure enough there it was. Silly Heena!

"Why were we at the lake house, and why did you have his pasta and camera?"

I cannot believe how stuck on this I am. I have been stuck on it for years, and I finally thought I was done. I just can't help but feel that the end is not now. That it will be a lasting thing. The only thing more unnerving than not knowing is thinking you know but not being sure. It doesn't help that I can't get away from it. It gets brought up all the time. I am truly fine, I don't feel hurt or wanting. I feel great, but I don't want to be stuck on this anymore.





after watching the movie "ONCE" on Sunday night with Amber and Josh and now listening to the Swell Season I have really been wanting to go to Ireland. It is such a magical place. Im just sad I was as fatigued as I was when I went last year.


Just checked my final grades. Somehow managed an A in Human Bio and Lab, as well as in Psychology. I thought I would be getting a B at best in Psychology considering I really didn't put much effort into it, and on my final I skipped the 2 essay questions I was supposed to do. I can't believe is. In Math I got a B..... I thought I was going to have an A for sure in that class, I help on to an A for most of the semester. I was sad to lose it in the end.

So I am getting more and more confirmation that God really wants me in the mission field. I have had so many opportunity presented and so many connections made. Last time I was in Wisconsin my old youth pastor and I were talking and I was telling her about what God had been doing in my life and about missions work and such, and she invited me to go to Ghana with her next year. She goes and teaches at a bible school there. Then last night some of my friends threw me a surprise party, (Totally surprised still, best thing ever!) My friend Anthony was there, his dad works in Rwanda. Anthony was like "If you ever want to go to Rwanda let me know" I was like "umm yes please! I totally want to go." Then he asked me what I wanted to do there. I just blurted out "I want to pray for people." haha
I'm so excited about what God is doing, you have no idea. I love seeing God work. It's as simple as humbling yourself to accept His love and he lavishes it on you. So great.
I got prayer for my knee yesterday at church. Right after the bruising started getting lighter and the swelling began to go down. It is not all the way better, but it is much better! I am so happy about God's love! It's beautiful!

confused rambling, sorry if it makes no sense

Finally have the clearance I need to leave this place and not regret anything. There have been some things that I have been waiting to have pan out. Finally things are making sense kind of.
I have patched a relationship that ended badly, and I now know that I need not worry about a certain person anymore.

It's really something when you finally see how un-original somebody is.


I finally feel like I can leave without hesitation. It was interesting, I was talking with a good guy friend of mine last night and I told him that I was leaving for school in the fall and he said "yeah you need to get out of here." I found that interesting considering I have only lived in the area for 4 years. People spend their entire lives in one area and here I am only 4 years in an area and I need to get out. Hmmm. I take that as confirmation. I'm ready to have one heck of a summer and then go away with God. He is the only stable things in my life, the only thing that never runs out, He is everlasting.

Officially done with school for the summer. I won't be stepping foot on this campus for at least a year. I am more than happy. I was going to take french but I think that may be a terrible idea. Instead I'm hoping to work another job along with the Y and make many memories with my good friends.

in case you are wondering about the status of my knee I took some pics a little while ago. I thought I would share. My mom is going to call the Dr. tomorrow about an appointment. I also have finals this week. I have all the time in the world to study seeing as how I can do nothing but lay around all day.