Ah yes it is true! I have French homework to do, yet I blog.
It is only because I have already come to terms with the fact that I will not possibly be able to do school tonight.
Not only am I not feeling well still, but tonight at youth group we decided to have a discussion. The topics that were brought up were predestination verses free-will, the end times, and everything that can possibly connect the two.
Though I am truely very interested in these topics and have brought them up myself at times, it no doubt added to my headache.
I am so frustrated. I have two weeks of school left and yet somehow we are supposed to fit two more French tests into that time. With me being sick, it is not a good thing to hear.
On top of all that, I am not feeling well still so my immune system is down, and word has it that swine flu has broken out in a near by town. OH BLAST!!
I honestly don't want to leave my house.
On the up side. My Mandolin now officially has new strings on it. Granted I don't have it back yet, but it is comforting to know it just the same.
OH YEAH!!! I have my art project started. And by started I mean that I have come up with my basic idea and a completed sketch, I need now only sit down and put it together. This will no doubt take a number of hours.
so random thought.
A friend of mine said this a week ago and I am realizing how awesome a statement it is.
He said something to the effect of "only two things in this world are eternal. The word of God, and peoples souls. Nothing else. Therefore if we aren't doing things that effect one of those two areas, then really they don't matter."
WOW! It totally changes your perspective on things.
Thats all I can think to say right now..... perhaps something more when I have half my wits collected.
night!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Ive been laying in bed all day. Blasted stomach irritant. Im not sure what is wrong with me but I def feel it. It was really bad at work this morning and I couldnt wait to get home.
I've been in bed almost the entire time since.
So my day has consisted of:
Waking up,
eating breakfast,
driving to work,
cleaning at work,
teaching a class,
a girl in my class fell and bit her lip so I had to calm an upset little girl,
I had to clean up an upset bleeding little girl once she was done crying,
Drove home,
went to bed,
Stayed in bed......
So random though. Today at work, since I wasn't feeling good I decided that I would let the kids in my class play more then usual today. I told them that if they were really good listeners I would have a surprise for them.
This is the part I love.
I love how honest kids are.
You would expect them to be perfect listeners, but they weren't. They didn't listen any better then they do on any other day. Even when I reminded them about the surprise it was still hard to get some of them to listen. I had to yell one kids name 3 times before he would even pause what he was doing and look up at me. It's not like he didn't hear me or something because I am not a quiet person at all. I can out yell just about anyone if I want to.
I did give them the surprise anyway just because I wasn't feeling well and the surprise consisted of me sitting on a mat while they climbed around in a jungle-gym. It was good for my aching tummy and fun for them.
All in all it was a win-win for me.
In so glad to be home now though, I just wish I wouldn't be wasting my day laying in bed.
I have had a few ideas on what to do for my art project I'm just too sick to start it.
That is a win-lose for me. :/
Of well..........
I've been in bed almost the entire time since.
So my day has consisted of:
Waking up,
eating breakfast,
driving to work,
cleaning at work,
teaching a class,
a girl in my class fell and bit her lip so I had to calm an upset little girl,
I had to clean up an upset bleeding little girl once she was done crying,
Drove home,
went to bed,
Stayed in bed......
So random though. Today at work, since I wasn't feeling good I decided that I would let the kids in my class play more then usual today. I told them that if they were really good listeners I would have a surprise for them.
This is the part I love.
I love how honest kids are.
You would expect them to be perfect listeners, but they weren't. They didn't listen any better then they do on any other day. Even when I reminded them about the surprise it was still hard to get some of them to listen. I had to yell one kids name 3 times before he would even pause what he was doing and look up at me. It's not like he didn't hear me or something because I am not a quiet person at all. I can out yell just about anyone if I want to.
I did give them the surprise anyway just because I wasn't feeling well and the surprise consisted of me sitting on a mat while they climbed around in a jungle-gym. It was good for my aching tummy and fun for them.
All in all it was a win-win for me.
In so glad to be home now though, I just wish I wouldn't be wasting my day laying in bed.
I have had a few ideas on what to do for my art project I'm just too sick to start it.
That is a win-lose for me. :/
Of well..........
Monday, April 27, 2009
Confidence??
I was thinking about how people say that there is nothing more attractive then a confident girl. What is confidence? I mean really think about it..........are you thinking?
what would you call it?
is it just feeling good in the skin that you are in?
Is it feeling attractive?
I know so many girls who try to appear confident and together thinking that it will make them seem confident.It always seems to make them seem more pompous then anything.I am coming to realize that confidence is merely passion.
For example, you can see two girls walk by you in the hall, and both have some thing that makes them stand out from the average girl. One of them you look at and think "wow, she is trying way to hard to stand out and be noticed."Then there is the other girl who you look at with a sort of mystery and you wonder what it is about her that makes her able to pull it off? You know that she does i because it is just who she is and she doesn't have to think about it at all.I have concluded that...It's all about the passion.
I have friends that I would say are very confident. they don't do things just because other people do it, they are simply unique. They don't go against the grain just in order to be different and rebels.It is just them at there essence.They are so confident in their likes and dislikes and no matter how weird you find some of the things they like, you just can't really find a way to cut them down for it. You know it would be to no avail because that's just who they are.
It is something that I have been working on for a while now. I like what i like. I don't care if people think I'm weird and crazy.I don't care if they think I'm loud, or they think that the fact that I like Irish music and Folk music is stupid.
My faith in God is also the MOST important thing in my life, I have a taste of the plan He has for me and I will not put it aside for anything. It is that good. :]
I don't care if Brady Quinn himself comes out of no where and proposes marriage to me, unless he is willing to join me in God's work, I want nothing to do with him. It's just who I am.
That's not to say that I always feel confident. There are times when I feel very un-interesting, and it shatters my confidence completely.
I feel inadequate and average, but then I remember why God made me and that I am comparing myself to other people or an unrealistic standard I set for myself, [Stupid Heena] and the sad thing is that most of the people that I worry about being confident around don't have what I have.(no I'm not being cocky, just bear with me) They don't have the relationship with God that I have, they have probably never heard of the incredible love that a relationship with Christ produces.
When remembering that how can you not be confident and feel amazing. So I would say, the key to confidence is knowing who you are on all levels.
Outside : who you appear to be. How you choose to dress, and do your hair and your hygiene habits. (they say more about you then you want to admit, but really how often do you judge people by what they are wearing? my case stands)
Inside: What makes your heart beat faster?What do you deem as really important?What will you give anything to see happen and come true?What do you think about yourself and your purpose on earth?Why do you make the decisions that you make? Are you doing it to impress other people or because you want to and think it will be best?
In Christ: Big one!Why do you believe what you believe?
How serious are you about living your life for Him?
Do you do things to bring God glory or is it for you?Do you try and constantly love as Christ would want you to?
Is your relationship with God foremost in your life and do you make decisions that will grow that relationship?
Find yourself in these areas, and embrace those things that make you uniquely......well...you.
God made you different for a reason.
It's not to be recognized and elevated above people who aren't quite as interesting, or who don't quite get it like you do.
Rather you were made different in order to bless other people with your unique gifts and abilities and to bring God pleasure and happiness.
He loves our many different ways of seeing the world He created for us. He loves to see what we make of circumstances and situations.
He loves to see how far we take the natural talents we have and how hard we work at other things that come alittle less naturally. I get excited just thinking about it. God loves my loud crazy personality so much that He always wants to be with me. :]
That's just awesome to me.I hope this made sense and didn't flit all over too much. :]
It is 1:34 in the morning so I have a slight excuse. :]
Have character and embrace who you are...It will give you that confidence. :]
what would you call it?
is it just feeling good in the skin that you are in?
Is it feeling attractive?
I know so many girls who try to appear confident and together thinking that it will make them seem confident.It always seems to make them seem more pompous then anything.I am coming to realize that confidence is merely passion.
For example, you can see two girls walk by you in the hall, and both have some thing that makes them stand out from the average girl. One of them you look at and think "wow, she is trying way to hard to stand out and be noticed."Then there is the other girl who you look at with a sort of mystery and you wonder what it is about her that makes her able to pull it off? You know that she does i because it is just who she is and she doesn't have to think about it at all.I have concluded that...It's all about the passion.
I have friends that I would say are very confident. they don't do things just because other people do it, they are simply unique. They don't go against the grain just in order to be different and rebels.It is just them at there essence.They are so confident in their likes and dislikes and no matter how weird you find some of the things they like, you just can't really find a way to cut them down for it. You know it would be to no avail because that's just who they are.
It is something that I have been working on for a while now. I like what i like. I don't care if people think I'm weird and crazy.I don't care if they think I'm loud, or they think that the fact that I like Irish music and Folk music is stupid.
My faith in God is also the MOST important thing in my life, I have a taste of the plan He has for me and I will not put it aside for anything. It is that good. :]
I don't care if Brady Quinn himself comes out of no where and proposes marriage to me, unless he is willing to join me in God's work, I want nothing to do with him. It's just who I am.
That's not to say that I always feel confident. There are times when I feel very un-interesting, and it shatters my confidence completely.
I feel inadequate and average, but then I remember why God made me and that I am comparing myself to other people or an unrealistic standard I set for myself, [Stupid Heena] and the sad thing is that most of the people that I worry about being confident around don't have what I have.(no I'm not being cocky, just bear with me) They don't have the relationship with God that I have, they have probably never heard of the incredible love that a relationship with Christ produces.
When remembering that how can you not be confident and feel amazing. So I would say, the key to confidence is knowing who you are on all levels.
Outside : who you appear to be. How you choose to dress, and do your hair and your hygiene habits. (they say more about you then you want to admit, but really how often do you judge people by what they are wearing? my case stands)
Inside: What makes your heart beat faster?What do you deem as really important?What will you give anything to see happen and come true?What do you think about yourself and your purpose on earth?Why do you make the decisions that you make? Are you doing it to impress other people or because you want to and think it will be best?
In Christ: Big one!Why do you believe what you believe?
How serious are you about living your life for Him?
Do you do things to bring God glory or is it for you?Do you try and constantly love as Christ would want you to?
Is your relationship with God foremost in your life and do you make decisions that will grow that relationship?
Find yourself in these areas, and embrace those things that make you uniquely......well...you.
God made you different for a reason.
It's not to be recognized and elevated above people who aren't quite as interesting, or who don't quite get it like you do.
Rather you were made different in order to bless other people with your unique gifts and abilities and to bring God pleasure and happiness.
He loves our many different ways of seeing the world He created for us. He loves to see what we make of circumstances and situations.
He loves to see how far we take the natural talents we have and how hard we work at other things that come alittle less naturally. I get excited just thinking about it. God loves my loud crazy personality so much that He always wants to be with me. :]
That's just awesome to me.I hope this made sense and didn't flit all over too much. :]
It is 1:34 in the morning so I have a slight excuse. :]
Have character and embrace who you are...It will give you that confidence. :]
Other blog.
Instead of copying and pasteing the entries from my other blog, I just added a link to my xanga.
http://heenapuca.xanga.com/
there you have it.
http://heenapuca.xanga.com/
there you have it.
Salve! Amicus!
Im not even sure how to start out this one. I always have so much trouble thinking of a way to begin writing my thoughts.
Well it is day two of me borrowing Aaron's mandolin. It is so nice that I cant even believe he let me borrow it. I can't wait till I have mine back though.
I have been working on the song "Whiskey before Breakfast" for the last two days.
My fingers just don't seem to want to go as fast as my brain is telling them to.
I love playing though. It is so theraputic in a way.
I also have only 4 weeks or so of school left. I know it sounds long but in light of the fact that it is really only 26 days till I am DONE makes it seem so soon.
A girl in my French and I both went over exactly how long we had left as of this morning. We have only 11 more classes not counting todays.
I have only 7 more art design classes and I am actually ready to be done with that class and have time to work on some other independent projects and sketches. I have a project that I have been working on for my sister and I would really like to finish it.
We started a new assignment in art design today. This weeks assignment:
Compose something utilizing the golden mean, or the root 5 rectangle.
This is a mathmatic concept that relates heavily to art.
this is what I mst incorporate into a piece.
I have absolutely NO IDEA what to do. I usually have so many ideas that I have to decide which ideas not to use.
I would really like to keep my A in the class so I am so nervous of messing this one up.
Blast!!
It was cool toda in art though because my class took the necker cubes that we had all made and we put them together and the visual effect of it was great. I took some pics with my cellphone but I will most likely never get around to posting them since it is too much of a hassel. :/
Maybe some time though.
Just for an idea of what it looked like...
Here is a Necker cube:
Our cubes were all in matching colors though. It looked something like this (only ours are blue and violet for the frame and yellow and orange inside, we also used saturated hues, no tints or shades of them):
Other news.... The art show is still going on at school and I still need to go and take a picture of my piece hanging up in the show. I actually hope someone buys it. I wouldnt complain about having alittle extra money.
My gym is also hosting the state gymnastics meet this weekend. I am excited to go and work there. It has been so long since I have been to a meet. I am actually really excited. It is also the first time I will see my friend Chloe compete. Though sadly it is the last meet of her career. I'm still excited nonetheless.
My birthday is in......*counting*...9 days!! I can't wait. I think I may see about going to the art institute on my birthday. I hope that works. I would have to miss youth group that night then.
I also decided on a date for my birthday party. Ive decided on June 13th, even though, Im sure, people will be really confused as to why I am having it over a month after my birthday. But they will just have to deal with their confusion because I am not telling why. They will find out soon enough.
"It's a dangerous business, going out of you door, you step into the Road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no telling where you might be swept off to." -J.R.R. Tolkien
Have a great rest of your monday!!!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
maybe we don't want to be found
This is my first blog on here. I hope to transfer my blogs from facebook and xanga onto here once I have more time.
I have spent the last two hours or so replying to an extremely long email, yet I only made it hal way through.
I decided about a year ago that it would be grand to record one story a day about something funny that happened to me that day. I would write it in a note book each night before bed. Like most good ideas, this lasted for a few months, and the entries got fewer and far between, not to mention vague. I figure that since I am on-line daily this will have a better chance at sticking.
I also type faster than I write which will help me in recording my odd thought tangents (whether anyone will be able to keep up with them or not is an entirely different story.)
I've decided that blogging is a step above facebook. Im not sure why this is so, but it makes sense to me and a few other people I have talked to.
I asked a few friends about some ideas as to what I should name this blog.
Here are some ideas.
1.when the stars wink
2.(blast Bella said something cute as an idea and it seems I lost it)
It was something like
"the everyday life and events of Hanna Coffey" (but coming from Bella it was naturally much cuter then that.)
3 Confessions of a coffeycake
4.Making my life story a must read
Then I decided on "My barefoot journey"
In light of the fact that this is my second day I have gone not wearing shoes.
This even included walking around a college campus barefoot. Yes, inside and outside of building.
Well this has been a completely pointless entry, but I am too tired to elaborate. Though today had been a very eventful day.
3.
I have spent the last two hours or so replying to an extremely long email, yet I only made it hal way through.
I decided about a year ago that it would be grand to record one story a day about something funny that happened to me that day. I would write it in a note book each night before bed. Like most good ideas, this lasted for a few months, and the entries got fewer and far between, not to mention vague. I figure that since I am on-line daily this will have a better chance at sticking.
I also type faster than I write which will help me in recording my odd thought tangents (whether anyone will be able to keep up with them or not is an entirely different story.)
I've decided that blogging is a step above facebook. Im not sure why this is so, but it makes sense to me and a few other people I have talked to.
I asked a few friends about some ideas as to what I should name this blog.
Here are some ideas.
1.when the stars wink
2.(blast Bella said something cute as an idea and it seems I lost it)
It was something like
"the everyday life and events of Hanna Coffey" (but coming from Bella it was naturally much cuter then that.)
3 Confessions of a coffeycake
4.Making my life story a must read
Then I decided on "My barefoot journey"
In light of the fact that this is my second day I have gone not wearing shoes.
This even included walking around a college campus barefoot. Yes, inside and outside of building.
Well this has been a completely pointless entry, but I am too tired to elaborate. Though today had been a very eventful day.
3.
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