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"We adore sanctity until it makes us choose. We shout for justice until it costs a few extra bucks. We worship "love" and divorce our spouses. We fight in the highest courts to protect an unborn's life [or women's rights] and yet leave millions of orphans [and women] without home and without family [and it doesn't even plague our conscience]. Yes, we love when the holy right is on our side and will go to all lengths [whether it is a debate or a suicide attack] to prove that this supposed right belongs to us."


This just punched me in the gut when I read it.
 I found it on this girls blog. http://amyrupshaw.blogspot.com/
     You should definitely give it a read.

blessed

Did an art piece the other day, I don't know how I feel about it. :/
I need to find a better way to coat soft pastel pieces.
SOme good news, I recieved some great letters and cards this last week for support of my upcoming trips. Total blessing. Yesterday I worked an extra hour and a half for a co-worker, then got home feeling really exhausted and had a super encouraging letter waiting for me. The letter was from a lady who my family has been friends with for years, always  huge part of my childhood. It encouraged my face off! I felt so blessed.
I also recieved a card from my old youth pastor Shelli. SO sweet! I love hearing from her. I love her heart.
She just bought her tickets to go back to Ghana in May. I hope that someday soon I will be able to go with her. :]

I will probably update more later, I want to work on a piece for someone now. :]

I'm kind of missing my family tonight. I guess that is what happens when you are sick on your day off. I always want my mom in the same building as me when I don't feel well. Here's to hoping I feel better tomorrow.

big sigh= SIGH

Finally it is time for an update. I honestly get burnt out from blogging at times, that and I have not been feeling well since Tuesday. I am feeling a bit better now. Maybe it is the mug of Hawaiian Hazelnut coffee I just drank, or the fact that I slept for 12 hours last night and had the day off to lay around.

   The last few days I have been so overwhelmed and stressed. I always get drained when I am stressed, which is probably why I am so sick now. 

I was stressed because of my upcoming EMT-B national registry exam that I was taking on Wednesday. No matter how much I studied I was still nervous. 

Then to add to it I had been called in to work on Sunday and Monday which were supposed to be my days off, thus giving me only Saturday off.  

SO Wednesday comes around and I had agreed to take a co-workers shift that day (this was before I thought I was going to be working on Sunday and Monday)

. After the shift I rush home to get directions and things in order for my EMT test and Brenda asks me to take her to her work so she can get her company car.  

"Yeah sure, let me just go print off directions for the place my test is at and get my passport for identification. It will only take a sec!" I yell as I run up the stairs. 

I go to get my passport and it is nowhere to be found! 

I started tearing my room apart to find it. My room was clean when I left for work. I definitely changed that. I started freaking out and seriously though I was going to faint. This is why I don't clean my room, every time I do I cannot find anything.  

If I missed the test it would have cost be the 70 dollar fee I had already paid, then I would have to schedule another and pay 70 dollars again. 

I double checked what I needed to take the test and found out that an Drivers license and bank card would do. 

I was almost late to my test. I was so nervous that I was sick all day before and even for a while after I had finished it. 

I was so stressed after that I started stress shopping, I would just walk into stores, look around, and walk out. 

Once I go home I started tearing things farther apart looking for my passport. Still no luck. Here it is days later and I have not found it yet. I found a bunch of other things that I forgot I had brought here, but no passport. This is so frustrating. If I don't find it by Monday I am going to apply for another one.  I was just looking forward to adding some stamps to my Ireland one. 

This is so frustrating!!!

Good news though, I found out on Thursday morning that  I passed my test and am now a Nationally certified EMT-B. :]

Last night after class Shekinah, Clayton and I went to BWW to celebrate. Clayton ordered a Guiness. I usually don't wish I was older, but at that moment I did. I wanted a Guiness so bad. I fact I would take one now.

    We were trying to be inconspicuous like spies. hahaha

 We wore crowns of celebration! We were celebrating my EMT success and Shekinah's birthday! :]

Clayton was just wearing a crown because he felt left out.

As for today. 

 I went and chopped off a bunch of my hair. Like 6 inches maybe. 

I LOVE it!

Then I got Subway for lunch. 

 

I'm still exhausted and I have done nothing all day.
KNVIOKDXc

Just sick

I don't know if it is from stress, or fear, or a legitimate cause but I feel terrible.
I am still nervous about my EMT test which I already took and now just have to wait for results on. I have no idea why the skills test didn't scare me at all but the written test did. Maybe it is the years of gymnastics that forced me to perform in front of people who are judging me. Maybe???
 I would like to start feeling better soon. That would be ideal.
             I have to prepare a presentation for class tomorrow night on diarrhea prevention and treatment. I have been feeling so sick the last few days that when I am not working I am laying around and sleeping.
I wish I had something more interesting to say, but even typing this is fatiguing me.

Bring back no-shave NOVEMBER!!!

So it's all coming full circle. 

It just makes sense that i would bring up something from my childhood again.

This time flash back to when I was about 3. 

WOW man look at those amazing bangs!

I remember my mom always telling me that when I was a young'n I loved men (haha) and espescially ones with beards. 

I always thought that was weird because though my pre-teen and early teen years I still loved guys but thought beards were nasty.

As my teen years are drawing to an end I find myself being strangely attracted to guys with beards.

I think I figured out why.  

You know how when you are a kid you love life and are full of so much joy and wonder? Well in case you didn't notice I have recently found myself loving life more and more everyday; i have also starting dressing in whichever way I want whether or not it matches. It seems that when you stop caring about social norms and all of the stuff that bogs adults down  you get back to your truest self, like the self you were as a child before you were taught to be anything but yourself. 

Next thing I know I will be pulling myself out of day dreams that involve me being a beaver.

A guy asked for my number last week while I was at work; I gave to him because ,well being honest, he had a beard!!

hahahahahahahahah

I'm so ridiculous!!!

I guess we all have our weaknesses. 

Bearded men beware!!!

Speaking of beards you should probably check out that link.  hahaha

AS promised, FINALLY!

Here is the design for the Mission Medic T-Shirt. 

:]

Let me know if you want one. They will be about 18 dollars a piece depending on the type of T you want  and how far I have to ship it to you. We are planning on getting the shirts that are out of organic materials.

We can also get the logo on different colored t-shirts so keep that in mind. 

 I will post more once I have an actual order form in my hands. We are hoping to do as much pre-ordering as possible just to be sure that people get sizes and colors that they want. Let me know if you are interested and I will take special note to keep you informed. 

Please keep in mind that these are to raise awareness and funds for people like myself to go do much needed medical work  and teach prevention in developing countries.