I just wish Jesus would come back already. I am so tired of all the hurt and pain here. It's not so much with me. yes, I have my frustrations and hard stuff but mostly I'm thinking about people I love. People close to me. God gave me this gift you see, and for the longest time when people mentioned it, I hated it! I didn't want it, I didn't like it, I couldn't understand how this is a good gift. Every time someone said "you have such a tender heart, or soft heart." I felt like I was a sissy or something. Tenderness meant weakness in my eyes, but now I am seeing the significance. God gave me a piece of His heart. The piece of His heart that cries when His children cry, and that laughs when His children laugh, His heart breaks when His children's hearts break. I remember thinking I was some sort of emo girl when I was younger. I couldn't understand why I would get so hurt so easily when people around me were hurt. I'm not talking about when people hurt my feelings, that didn't bother me as much. More so when I thought that I was hurting someone else, or when I thought that someone was going to get hurt. I hated and still do hate to see people get hurt. I used to take the blame for people around me so I didn't have to see them get into trouble. It just gets very tiring sometimes. I see these people around me doing things that hurt one another and they can;t even seem to see how badly it is hurting others. I just wish Jesus would come back and take away all this frustration and hurt. I suppose that soft heart that I used to resent is the exact reason that I am going into missions. TO help those who can't help themselves. To take the blame for people who shouldn't have to take any blame. I am resolved to do that even if it means giving my life for it. I just want people to know that Jesus is Love and He will take away all the pain one day, and it is worth fighting for now. yes, there are promises for now and there is absolute greatness in the end also!