French lessons with a 3 year old :]

She is def my niece.




Lilly and I were just going over some French phrases together. She is so cute.
I just wanted to share some of the cute things she says.
the things she say is typed out how it sounded to me when she said it.

me: "est- ce-que vous bien?" (pronounced like "es-qu- vu- be-en")

Lilly :"scope ubu bien?"

me: "comment-talle vous?" (Pronounced like " como- tally- vu")

Lilly: "callee poo?"

Me: "Je ne sais pas?" (pronounced like "je nes say paw")


Lilly : "nessy paw"


She just informed me that "awww! The plant is cute"

" My necklace is messed up. why is my necklace so silly"

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* written words speak louder than actions.*

Who would have thought that people were wrong all along. I'm not sure where the saying came from but it must be flawed. "actions speak louder than words".
HA! how UN-true. I myself have said that phrase more than enough yet being in my teen years I know as well as anyone that this isn't always the case. It is true in some cases. Sometimes the act of someone not being able to return a phone call or make an effort to visit you while you are stuck on the couch living the gimp life is speaking much louder than there "I love you so much and I am always there for you." words.

How many people seem to be sweet. They can not only speak it, but they can also act it to your face. They embrace you when they see you, but you can't be sure if the hug means anything or if they are looking for a break in your armor where they can stab you in the back.

Sometimes people will show up for you and make you think that they care just by them taking the time, but can you ever be sure of their true motives. Lieing isn't a lost art now days, not even if churches and youth groups. People are out to get what they want and what will satisfy them now. No one cares if they are hurting someone in the long run. People don't have trouble hurting someone but they are so crushed when someone hurts them. Hypocrisy? yes! Christians deserve that label. Non-believers aren't claiming a life of honesty and love, and when things blow up on them they don't blame it on God. Oh, our ever present scape goat in time of need. (the truth in that statement just made me throw up in my mouth alittle bit)

You never know what is going on in someones head.


But back to my point on what speaks louder. I don't think it is possible for someone to truly get the way you think, or the things you are hiding and harboring in your mind. I like to think that I am really good at getting people to open up to me. I think this is a fairly accurate assumption, yet still i know that some things I don't know. Somethings come out at the oddest times, sometimes after years of being almost inseparable.

Something speaks much louder to me than words or actions. It's peoples written word

Written word speaks so clearly about a person. Written word shows something that a person is deeply contemplating and pondering. It is their way of expressing something that they can't express in any other way.
It is their art form. I think that is why I love art like I do. Because it gives you a glimpse into a persons heart and soul.
Art doesn't really have a real definition. I always defined art as
"A thought or idea expressed in a tangible way."
That would describe painting, sketching, sculpting, just about anything that you would expect to find in an art museum. But written word also fits under this definition.

I feel like I have learned so much about people by reading their blogs. I wish more people blogged. It is a better way of representing yourself to people then by putting stuff on facebook or myspace.


Just think about it. Let me know if you read this and have any thoughts.

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I cant believe my sister added this song to my playlist. Last time she was visiting we decided to listen to some good ole Hanson music, just for the sake of old times. She actually added one of the songs and for some reason I still haven't taken it off, almost as though she would know I did it and then think less of me.
I just changed the song so all is well.
Song of the moment : Such Great Heights by Postal Service.
This I will not change. :]

Naomi is over right now and is sleeping on the "Lilly Pad" on the other side of the room. She came over at like 8:30 tonight. The extent of our hanging out consisted of me showing her some awesome socks that I found at the Salvation Army, and other purchases. Then we both put on a pair of the rather extraordinary socks.
Why are these socks amazing? Because they go up above my knees, and with legs as long as mine you can be sure that this is something amazing. Not only that but I also got them brand new from Salvation Army, and I paid only 60 cents per pair.

Nay and I then got some water and put her clothes in the dryer, then she did some devos and went to bed, as I played my mandolin.

That is true friendship right there.

I just spent at least 20 min looking on Netflixs in the hopes of finding a movie that isn't a complete waste of time, yet I found nothing. Why am I not surprised? I can not honestly remember the last time that I sat through an entire movie.


Today was a really good day for me. Granted I did sleep all morning, but once I got up I didn't get any headaches and seemed to be much less fatigued. I actually did school and understood it and felt that I learned it. I feel like during the last semester I was just constantly attempting to memeorize a bunch of random facts that were completely disconnected just in order to spit it all back out during my next test. It's nice to actually learn and remember it.

My mind is flooded with thoughts right now because of my good health. I can't help but think of all the drama going on with people I know, and all the heart ache and I can't help but think how everyone seems to just be missing something so much bigger.
I don't get how people around me have so much time to invest in annalysing other peoples lives and starting rumors about people when I don't feel like I have time to meet any of my goals at all in a timely manner.

I read this verse tonight
And it kind of hit me.

"31. Then the churches throughout all Judea , Galilee, and Samaria had peace and were edified. And walking in the fear of the Lord and in the comfort of the Holy Spirit, they were multiplied."

This might seem like a really random verse to stand out to someone. Let me give some backround.

My church is small and is facing financial problems right now. I love my church and have never felt more comfortable in a church family in my life. I don't understand why atttendance isn't going up and people's lives aren't being changed.
This verse made me think about something that my friend Ryan said months ago about how he likes going to different churches for their many events and meetings and such because he thinks
That the churches need to be in unity. This verse opened my eyes to the truth in that statement.
People need to stop putting up walls between churches everytime something tiny offends us. As christians we need to be much less easily offended. We need to turn the other cheek and forgive, even if someone really hurts us.
We need to further God's kindgom together as a complete body.

I know it's easier said than done, but believe me I have had my share of this too. I have had my feeilings hurt a good many times in the last year. I'm almost afraid to check my phone for texts because most aren't very good these days. Thus I tend to not check my phone all day, I even purposfully leave it at home when I leave.
And just ask me about the stress too. Just tonight I was explaining to Ryan about how I am going to the Dr. and Im hoping they find something wrong with me other than stress, because if it is stress then there is nothing at all I can do about it, but if it is something else then I can get meds for it or something.
No body goes without pain or trouble. Show me a person in the Bible who had life made. There isn't any. We have to choose to turn the other cheek and forgive and stop playing the victim.
I'm not even sure how to explain my thoughts anymore than this at present. I suppose you will have to fill in the rest according to your own conviction.

Well if this isn't the most random and most obnoxiously written post ever, than I don't know what I can do to make it more so.

Great Moments of the day

1. reading on my front porch in the Am. hours
2. Going back to bed and sleeping until noon.
3. Finding out my brother and his family got an appartment. (any strong boys want to help move them?)
4. Hearing those 50 seconds of live Big Band music in the park
5. Slushie from Dairy Queen
6. Salvation Army
7. Quoting Abot and Costello with my Dad.

A current frustration

It has been 6 days since my last post, and all though I have been thinking through so much right now I can't seem to write.
How frustrating.

Frustration seems to be my life story right now.
People can't wait until they are 18. I know I couldn't wait. Now that I am, I must admit I am really disappointed.
Almost everyone I know seems to be going back on their word, or completely changing into something ugly.
It is getting to where I can't tell anyone about anything I do or I will get in some sort of drama with somebody. Either I was with the wrong people, or I did the wrong thing, or I was awful for not inviting someone even though they dislike all the people I was with. No body sees anything wrong with what they do, but apparently I can't do anything right.

A huge annoyance right now is from the observation that people are so arrogant. It is one of the most annoying things I have seen since being back in the states. Everyone thinks that they know so much more than everyone else. They think they know better than you about how you should live your life and do things, even though they themselves are falling apart.
Why do we not realize the problem. People are so insanely hypocritical that I can't even stand it.
It is really sad that someone should have to be someones friend in order to avoid the drama that they would create.
(chances are I will have someone get mad at me for this post even. Even thought this is aimed at no one in particular)
Can we not see what we are becoming as a people? We create drama if we think that we aren't getting the exact attention we think we deserve.
We have such low self esteem and self confidence that we don't even know what to do with ourselves. Someone hits a nerve at all and we freak out. We tell all of our "BFF's" to stop talking to them. We plot anyway to get back at this person for some time after.

Lately I have gone to a great deal of gathering and "parties" and I have just sat back and watched. I can't even believe what I see. It is unbelievably. People are all fake to each other and pretend that they actually care when it is really obvious that they don't. People will create drama just to create drama. They will open one person's ("friend's") old wounds in an attempt to make their best friend look bad, or really for no reason. They will try to justify anything no matter how down right malicious and mean it is. I even saw a gossip session take place not 5 steps away from me the other day. Are we 12 year old girls again?

Are we that bored? Can we find nothing better to do? No wonder nobody seems to know who they are anymore. Everyone is too busy trying to be something and somebody that they completely miss it all. They totally miss what it is that will make them who they are. What it is that will develop character in them. I'm so tired of it.

We are becoming completely uninteresting as people in general. Whose fault do you think that is? It's ours. When we choose to waste our time instead of doing something productive. When we choose to not doing something because it seems too hard. It's pathetic.

I have been so frustrated the last 6 months or so. I have been fatigued or sick almost non stop, and if I'm not tired out of my mind then I have a headache. I hate not being able to do anything because I am too tired. I want to read and finish up schooling, and draw and paint, and play my mandolin. What makes things worse is when I see or hear about people doing absolutely nothing with themselves even though they feel totally fine and have bounds of energy. I envy them.




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I guess that is all for now. I am going to bed.
I don't want to get any response from people being mad about me for what I said.
If you don't think this applies to you then great for you.
If it hurts then maybe you should think about it.
Don't get mad at me if I hit a nerve, get mad at your nerves.

Stopping to smell the yakusimanum

I have been in such a pensive state lately. When I do get enough energy to actually think, it seems my mind is all over the place. Lately I have been so tired that my mind is almost completely blank. I am so grateful for the years of gymnastics training I have had in the past because I no longer have to think that much at work because It is almost second nature to coach.
The last few days have been spent doing nothing that brings me any amount of pride.
I have spent them at my house basically doing the tasks that my mom has me to do almost all day. Until I am so tired that I must sleep for a few hours. Then I once again get nothing done that I need to get done. I am still no closer to graduating. I am ashamed of the fact that I chose not to do Day Camp this week so that I could do school work, yet I have done no school.

Today was a good day though. I didn't get as much sleep as I would have liked last night but yet I made it through today so far with only a quick snooze in my chair.
I worked today for the first time since I left for Ireland. I got to do day one of a preschool gymnastics camp. The camp lasted from 11 to 1.
3 hours with preschool aged kids is something that you can not train somebody for.
Not only was I in charge of 6 little girls who didn't hear you call their name until the fourth time or so you yell for them, but team camp was going on at the same time. The gym was packed so it was hard to find anywhere to take these little girls.
We hardly did any actual gymnastics. We played duck duck goose, and a few seconds of freeze tag. We also made an obstacle course which the team girls tried out.

I got pushed into the pit by some of the team girls, then they bombarded me with blocks.
Amid the flying blocks hitting me at a rapid rate and the pit fuzz threatening to blind me, I managed to climb out of the pit and make it safely back to my unsupervised class.

After 3 hours and 4 bathroom breaks, we were done. I didn't realize how crazy the whole ordeal was until I look back. I had a girl have an accident in the bathroom. That was a pain considering it took place at the end of camp.

I picked up my checks which is always rewarding. Until you open them and realize that they aren't for as much as you had hoped.

Tonight I did get to finish a sketch that I started for my sister back around Easter time. I am really happy with how it turned out.

I am hoping the rest of this week gets better. No more headaches would be nice.
I am trying to put together a new diet that will hopefully help with my ever failing health.
Wish me luck.

current frustrations:

*Stupid unnecessary drama

*people wanting to know my every step

*headaches

*not getting enough hours at work

*school situations

*fatigue

*stupid people that don't trust me even though I have been nothing but honest with them

*Autumn leaves :[

*I feel like more things are working against me right now than are working for me. What a wretched feeling.


WOW I just hit the spell check button and apparently no spelling errors were found! And why am I not graduated?

I thought that since being back I would have all the time in the world to blog my thoughts and happenings.
I now seem to be more busy than ever.
The day after getting back I was already off to my first event. I surprised my friend Chloe at her grad party. She thought I was still in Ireland...but I wasn't!
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Since then I am almost incapable of remembering what event goes with which day. There was spending time with Jessica looking through all of my Ireland photos and eating pasta.
Crossroads and sleepover with Chloe.
Mikey's birthday party.
Moo-lala with Amber, Amy, and Josh.
Staying up too late with my sister. And today was all about surprising my mom with a day out with her daughters which included horse back riding.

Im hoping to do some hard-core schooling next week

sincerity? is that even an option?

Is anyone real anymore.
Why does it seem that everyone I meet is putting up a front.
Lately I don't know who I can believe anymore.
I try to be completely honest with everyone, I know all the time.
Why does nobody else feel the need to be honest.
I can't think of any circumstance in which it was better to lie to someone.

The people I thought I could believe in and trust have turned out to be the opposite of what they claim.
Men that I thought to be incredibly godly are sleeping around or into porn or something of the sort.
Women I thought were interesting and smart and just great women wind up being cantankerous, bitter, back-biting, lying women.

I am so upset about this that I am not even sure what to say about this.
I just wish there were more honest people in the world.
People who thought before they acted or spoke.

This is without a doubt the worst blog entry ever, and I will probably delete it soon, ut I just had to get it out.

2 completely random Ireland pics

BLARNEY!

Im in Blarney right now. sitting in the hotel room with Ania. This hotel is so pretty. The town is way to loud though. I miss Allihies but am glad to be seeing some new sights while im here.
I love the laid back feel of this trip. I love the fact that for the whole time I have been here I have had no concept of time. I get up about whatever time I want and go to bed whenever. It has been great.
I have been keeping a journal of my daily happenings and will hopefully transfer my entries onto here. I will have time when I get home anyways.

I have nothing else to say. Except that people are stupid. I say this because I have been reading articles on evolution and can't even believe the incompetence of some people who have degrees.

That is all. See you in a few days!!!!
:/
Im going to miss this beautiful place.

-Hanna